
Air Mata Air by Nadirah Zakariya
The Back Room is pleased to present Air Mata Air, Nadirah Zakariya’s first solo exhibition at our gallery. Through fabric installation and lightboxes, the exhibition traces a personal return to self via bodies of water and the physical body. This approach transforms the gallery into an intimate space for emotional introspection, a quiet site to explore both heart and mind.
Nadirah intensely feels the world around her, which can be overwhelming. To calm the system and centre her thinking she seeks refuge in bodies of water. Here, a lake, river or an ocean is a site for meditation, a place where emotional, psychological, and spiritual balance can be restored. But it is also more than that, she feels part of the water itself, deeply connected in an almost primordial way.
Air Mata Air presents this relationship through evocative pairings of fabric panels that hang from the ceiling and spill onto the floor with a lightbox placed directly behind it. Printed on the fabric to the point of abstraction are enlarged images of the artist’s own skin or water shimmering with light, while the accompanying lightbox features the image of skin or water in its entirety.
By using her own body, the exhibition becomes an alternative self-portrait where artist and water merge. Mimicking the sparkle of light on water, the lighter patches of skin reveal her vitiligo, a condition where skin loses its pigmentation over time. This has been well-documented in her practice as photographer and here becomes a metaphor for change and impermanence. The shifting patterns on her skin reminding her that nothing in life is constant. Like emotions or waves, they come and go.
The title of the show is a multi-layered play on the Malay words for tears (air mata) or springs of natural water (mata air). Tears often come in moments of joy or sadness and Nadirah hints at this through the words she has pinned onto the lightboxes, like hanyut in tears (“drowning in tears”) or rindu stings like saltwater (“missing someone stings like saltwater”). Such melancholy speaks of longing, loss, and the sublime through the body and the inspiring qualities of the natural world.
Air Mata Air is therefore, an invitation into an inner world where the body and nature are in quiet conversation. Moving beyond the frame of traditional photography, Nadirah creates an immersive environment to consider the personal and elemental. A poetic autobiography of emotions in today’s world.
—Eva McGovern
Opening reception
5 September, 7pm
Artist talk
14 September, 3pm at Malaysia Design Archive
84B The Zhongshan Building
Exhibition dates
6 September – 5 October 2025
Interview
Curator Eva McGovern sits down with Nadirah Zakariya to talk about the exhibition Air Mata Air, her practice, influences and how she engages with feelings in her work.
Air Mata Air is a very personal exhibition, filled with emotion and visual poetry. What inspired you to put this body of work together?
I went through many different concepts before arriving at this one, but I kept finding myself drawn back to water and to self-portraiture. In some way, I think all my work is a form of self-portraiture, even the flower still lifes from the All Purpose Flower series. It’s a process of making sense of who I am, layer by layer. And showing that vulnerability feels important, because to be open in that way is also to be human. Water has also always been there in my practice, a recurring theme that I return to almost instinctively. So when this series started to take shape, it felt very natural, but also very necessary, like the work was asking to be made.
Can you speak more about this relationship to water and what it means to you?
I’ve always felt a sense of calm whenever I’m near water. I can’t fully explain why, but whenever things feel overwhelming I often imagine myself floating in an endless sea, like the water could hold me when I can’t hold myself. Maybe it’s also because I live in the city, where everything feels so fast and crowded, that the need to be close to water becomes even louder. In many ways, being with water feels like returning home. This centres me and allows me to produce honest and authentic work.
You mention the importance of self portraiture in your work, how has having vitiligo allowed you to find new ways of seeing yourself?
Having vitiligo is wild. I’ve lived with it for almost 25 years now, which is more than half my life. It hasn’t always been an easy journey, but photographing my spots has helped me see them differently. The camera allows me to look at my skin almost objectively, and in that distance I can start to see them as something beautiful and unique. My spots are always changing, they come and go, they’re never the same twice. That has taught me that I don’t really have control over everything, and instead of fighting it, I’ve learned to embrace it.
I also think it’s important to share my journey of living with vitiligo because it’s still something not many people are familiar with. In a way, my art becomes a way of raising awareness and making vitiligo more visible.
Emotions feature heavily in your more recent work. Can you share how feelings emerge through Air Mata Air?
In Air Mata Air, emotions surface not just through the visuals but through the texts pinned onto the works. While the images may appear contemplative or dreamlike, the words carry undercurrents of longing and heavier feelings. Writing has always been how I process emotions, and over time it has naturally become part of my practice. I don’t consider myself a writer at all, I can only write the way I think, often moving between Malay and English. My handwriting becomes a personal trace within the work, almost like diary entries I’m allowing others to glimpse. The act of piercing each pin to form these words was therapeutic for me. I worked freehand, without tracing, repeating the motion until it became a way of sitting with my feelings. Accepting the small imperfections in the lettering was also part of the process — an openness to whatever emerged.
Overall, this series is about not being afraid of heavy emotions, but about allowing myself to learn, unlearn, and accept these feelings. It’s about recognizing the beauty in fragility, the resilience within it, and knowing that no matter what, I can always return to self-love.
For me, Air Mata Air carries all of this.
You are a photographer but this exhibition feels more like an installation with fabric cascading down from the ceiling to meet light boxes on the floor. What does this approach offer that straightforward photography does not?
For this show I wanted to work with lightboxes because there’s something magical about illuminated objects. It felt like the right way to honor the feelings that flow through me. The fabric came from a desire to work with something soft and fluid, something I couldn’t get from conventional photo paper. Photography is still the main medium of my work, but in terms of presentation I wanted to explore new ways of expressing how I feel. The fabric coming down from ceiling to floor is meant to capture both the sensation of being overwhelmed by emotions and the way they can flow like water. The lightboxes, on the other hand, act as anchors, grounding these feelings while still holding that sense of magic.
Beauty, fragility and emotion are rooted in cultural ideas around the feminine. Can you describe how the concept of the female gaze influences your work?
Some of the photographers I really admired when I was just starting out were Francesca Woodman and Sally Mann. What struck me about their work was the courage and intimacy in the way they explored the body, identity, and the everyday through photography. Seeing how they approached their own lives and surroundings made me feel like turning the camera onto myself could also be a valid and powerful form of art.
Their influence taught me that the body can be both subject and medium, a place where questions of beauty, identity, vulnerability, and strength can live together. It shaped how I think about image-making, not just as documentation but as a way of reclaiming and redefining how we see ourselves. Exploring my work through the female gaze, gave me the confidence to explore my own body in this way, to learn from it, to accept it, and to share that process through my work.
Air Mata Air is a very intimate exhibition. What have you learnt about yourself as a person and artist through this process?
The biggest challenge for me was allowing myself to really be honest and vulnerable, and to quite literally be put on display. But I’ve come to believe that this is an important part of my process — to face that discomfort, to let myself be seen, and to transform it into something meaningful through the work.
And what about your viewers, what do you want them to take away from the exhibition?
I want people to not be afraid to face themselves and their true feelings. Emotions come and go, and even the darkest ones can teach us something or give us room to grow. For me, all these feelings - the shiny and the dark - remind me that I am alive, and I hope viewers can also find the courage to sit with and embrace whatever they feel as human beings. I’m still learning to do this myself, and it’s not always easy, but that’s what makes the journey worthwhile.
About the Artist
Nadirah Zakariya (b. 1984) is a Malaysian photographer whose work draws on the fluidity of an upbringing that involved constant moving, exploring the intertwined themes of self-identity and sexuality while navigating emotions, religion, culture, and how these shape the ways we see ourselves and the world. Her practice reflects on place, memory, and the intimate intersections between the personal and the collective. She received her Bachelor of Fine Arts from the Fashion Institute of Technology, New York, in 2010 and is currently based in Kuala Lumpur.
Nadirah’s debut solo exhibition Daughters Ago (2011) in New York marked the emergence of her distinctive visual voice. She went on to present GIRLHOOD (2016) at the Leica Gallery and Fuji-san Love Letters (2018) at ILHAM Gallery, both in Kuala Lumpur. Her most ambitious solo show to date was Feeling Feelings Makes Me, Me (2023), presented at temu house, Petaling Jaya, and featured nearly 40 works, offering an expansive reflection on her artistic journey.
In 2025, one of her photographs, titled “All Purpose Flower MCO Day 59” (2020) was selected for the group exhibition FLOWERS: Flora in Contemporary Art and Culture at Saatchi Gallery in London in conjunction with the gallery’s 40th anniversary. Other notable group exhibitions include participation in Art Jakarta 2024 (under The Back Room) and In Times to Come (2024) at DECK Singapore.
She has undertaken numerous artist residencies including the Tenjinyama Artist Residency (2024) in Sapporo, Hokkaido, Japan, and the 6okken Artist Residency (2025) for the Two Mountains Project, both supported by the Japan Foundation Kuala Lumpur. Works from the latter were exhibited at the Two Mountains 4.0 Project at Sabah Art Gallery in April 2025.
Nadirah is an internationally published artist, with photographs appearing in The New York Times Magazine, VICE, Dazed and Confused, Refinery29, and Vogue Italia, along with a feature in Thames & Hudson’s Flora Photographica: The Flower in Contemporary Photography by William A. Ewing and Danaé Panchaud, a definitive survey of contemporary floral imagery.
Beyond her own practice, Nadirah is the co-founder of Layar Lucida, an award-winning, women-led creative studio focusing on commercials, films, and music videos. Layar Lucida aims to disrupt, take up space, and champion stories told through the female gaze. She is also a co-founder of Exposure+ Photo Festival in Kuala Lumpur, furthering her commitment to cultivating visual storytelling in Malaysia and beyond.
About the Curator
Eva McGovern is a writer and independent curator based in Kuala Lumpur. She has worked across public institutions, commercial galleries and auction houses and has written extensively on Southeast Asian contemporary art. After a ten-year hiatus, she returns to the art world to understand the current status of contemporary Malaysian art, pursue new lines of inquiry and reopen past passions into photography and landscape.
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Artworks
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Variation No. 1
2025
Oil, beeswax, oil pastel, natural pigment on canvas
25 × 30 cm
Listen to accompanying sound piece by André Abujamra